Today was the first day that B cried when I dropped him off at school. He was happy when I handed him over to his teacher, kissed him on the forehead and turned to go out the door. It was then that I noticed that he was almost out of diapers. I keep a box of his diapers in my trunk, so that I don’t ever let him run out at school.
I said goodbye and ran out to the car to grab a sleeve of diapers for his cubby. When I walked back into the room and started putting them in his cubby, he spotted me. And when I didn’t walk over to him immediately like I do in the afternoons, he started crying.
The tears instantly came to my eyes and I felt so guilty leaving him there while I went to work. This was the first time in the entire four months he’s been there that he’s gotten upset when I was leaving, and I know it won’t be the last, but it still hurt.
That was at 7:10 am.
I called at lunch to see how he was doing, and of course he was doing just fine. He’s eating, he’s playing, he’s laughing. He’s fine.
It’s now 3:00 pm and my eyes still sting from the tears that want to attempt an escape from their ducts, but I’m fighting them back. Tears won’t do me any good. And why should I cry? He’s in a good environment with lots of other kiddos to play with and learn from. Yes, it sucks leaving him every day. Yes, there are days when I wish I could stay at home with him. But I do love my job and I enjoy working. I’m not anywhere near ready to hang that up and stay at home – it’s just not me.
So for now, I’ll keep the guilt, and continue counting down the hours until I can go pick up my little man each day.
Two hours to go!
It’s hard to believe that it has been a little over six months since B entered the world. Man, people weren’t lying when they said time would fly! I mean, how is it already August??
I’ve been pretty slack when it comes to blogging, but I spend all of my weekdays working and all of my weeknights spending time with B and Josh, and getting ready for the next day once B goes to sleep. The weekends are dedicated to spending as much time as possible with my boys. This may or may not include never putting B down to sleep during the day – I’ll totally veg out and take a nap with him cuddled up on me. Laundry needs to be done? It can wait.* Need to clean the bathrooms? It can wait.* I know in the years to come he won’t want to snuggle up, so I’m taking advantage of it now, while he can’t say anything about it!
The past six months have been amazing. Watching B grow and learn new things every day has been a lot of fun. Every month I think “This is the best age” and then the next month I feel the same way. Now that he’s become even more interactive and aware, he’s constantly cracking us up!
From him shaking his head to where it looks like he’s saying no to him leaning back and ‘banging’ his head on his chair while we’re eating dinner when he’s bored. Or his little toothy grin when you make a funny face at him to him leaning forward with an open mouth to your cheek when you ask for a kiss. I absolutely adore this little guy. Both Josh and I can’t imagine our life without him, and barely remember life before him. Except for getting more sleep…we still recognize we had that before him. It’s been completely worth it though.
We’re six months in, and I couldn’t be happier with this whole parenting gig.
*Or Josh will get it done. I love that man – he’s so good to me.
My poor little guy. He’s sensitive. Sensitive skin and a sensitive bum.
In the first 11 weeks of his life, B dealt with diaper rash for about 9-10 of them. And by dealt, I mean it. He was quite the trooper. There were days he was so blistered, I don’t know how he tolerated diaper changes. There were days he would SCREAM and there were days you wouldn’t know anything was wrong. I was still pumping, so he was consuming my milk – but because the milk from BF is so digestible, he seemed to have a movement every hour or two – which was destroying his bum. I’d had it, and was determined to move him over to formula – knowing it would reduce the number of times a day he would have movements. Regular formula…had the same impact as the milk. What the what!?
We looked into everything possible, we tried every diaper cream imaginable, and nothing worked. He was seen at the pediatrician 4-5 times during this period and they seemed unsure as to what was going on.
We switched from Pampers to Huggies. We stopped using diaper wipes and went solely with warm wet washcloths (that was fun, let me tell you!). We changed him every hour on the hour (and even more frequently if he was wet – thanks to the indicator strips on the diapers).
We tried Nystatin when they thought it was a yeasty diaper rash, we tried corn starch, we tried Neosporin, we tried Triple Paste (and Triple Paste AF), Desitin, A&D Original, Boudreaux’s Butt Paste, Burt’s Bees Diaper Ointment (smelled pleasant, but didn’t work), and Balmex.
It wasn’t until one of the later doctor appointments that one of our doctors wrote a prescription for Silvadene cream. It’s used for bacterial or fungal infections, as well as burns [which is what his butt looked like - some kind of burn (out of respect for B - no pictures of this will be shared)]. She also gave us some soy formula samples to try, since the regular formula had been iffy as well. In addition to this, she referred us to one of the pediatric dermatologists in the area. It took a month to get in with them!
In that month, we used the Silvadene as prescribed and after a week or so we noticed a distinct difference. His bum was healing, he wasn’t having as many movements, and the soy formula didn’t bother him. Holy cow – we were so excited.
By the time we met with the pediatric dermatologist, his bum was healed (of course)! I was able to show her pictures, and based on our discussion and the review of the pictures taken over the weeks, she diagnosed him with Jacquet’s Diaper Dermatitis. She recommended using Sensi-Care on him for a barrier cream, and I tell you, that stuff works wonders. We use it on him at night to prevent as much contact as possible with anything in his diaper since he’s sleeping through the night and not waking up requiring diaper changes.
Over time we determined that it could have been the lactose bothering him (he gets it honestly – and I was lactose intolerant as a baby too – and still am), so the soy has definitely helped. However, now that teething has ramped up (homeboy has 2 teeth that have cut through already!), we’ve seen the diaper rash attempting to come back at least once.
At one of his recent visits to the doctor, he was diagnosed with a stomach virus, because teething shouldn’t have him going THAT frequently. It did a number on him.
We applied the Silvadene to help repair as necessary, the Sensi-care at night, as well as Triple Paste during the day (instead of the petroleum jelly we normally use) since it’s thicker and seems to stay on him bum a little longer. Daycare is changing him every hour, which also helps, and we’re tossing a little baking soda in with his bath water to assist in the healing, too.
And our little guy, he’s a champ. You still wouldn’t know he’s having issues unless I told you – always a smile on his face.
I normally wouldn’t share something so personal about our little guy, but I looked everywhere online for ideas and help. If anything in this post can help someone else in the future, you’re welcome!
And if you have diaper rash remedies that you can share, please do!
I knew that Josh would be a good father before we were even dating. In fact, I can remember the first time the thought entered into my mind.
It was November 2007 at the Spunlogic Thanksgiving Potluck. Josh and I had become work friends at this point, and there may or may not have been a little flirting going on, but that was about it. Company events at Spun were always my favorite, because everyone would bring their kids in, and the pot luck was no different.
Shannon, my boss at the time, brought in her adorable daughter, and she was in a very playful mood! She and I were playing in the conference room where everyone was sitting and Josh joined in. Watching him interact with her, I could see the care he had for someone else’s child and it was so sweet. When we were walking down the hall, he told me that he wanted to have kids one day. The tone in his voice and the look in his eyes said it all. And that may or may not be the day that my crush on him got a little stronger.
Growing up, I never really thought I wanted to have kids. It wasn’t until Josh and I started dating and fell in love that a spark lit inside me and something changed. And I’m glad that it did. I wanted to have a child so that Josh could become the father that he was meant to become.
Watching Josh with B every day brings a smile to my face and it completely warms my heart.
He’s tender and loving and the smile that comes over B’s face when he sees Josh is priceless. I can’t help but fall in love with him day after day.
Happy 1st Father’s Day, Josh. Thank you for being an amazing father to our wonderful son. He’s got a great man to look up to, and for that, I’m a lucky momma! I love you!
Before B got to be too big (and mobile), Josh and I had a few things we wanted to do around the house. One of the big items on the “Must fix sooner rather than later” list were the windows on our house. From the outside, they looked alright, but on the inside you could feel and easily hear what was going on outside (like, hear the guy four houses down raking his driveway). During the winter, our house would get really cold with air seeping through, and in the summer, it was terribly hot inside the house. Some windows had seals that were broken, so they were foggy. They were dingy and gross to a point we couldn’t easily clean them (especially the frames), the locks were faulty and we had no screens! All in all, I wanted them gone!
So we opted to put that at the top of our house renovation list, and called Champion Windows, as well as Window World, to get estimates. After doing online research, we knew that Champion had high pressure sales people, but everyone that chose to go with them seemed to be really impressed with the quality of the installation and the windows themselves. Window World had 50/50 reviews, but their sales rep was not nearly as high pressure, so that in itself was nice. The only thing we didn’t like about Window World was that all of the items included in the Champion quote were extra costs/fees with Window World. Based on everything we heard, we opted to move forward with Champion and D. Mack Scaife (if you’d like his info, let me know). We had a feeling we’d go with Champion to start with, but wanted to hear what they had to say. The sales pitch took THREE hours – he was very thorough. That night, we decided to move forward when he threw in a new door to our patio (because the guys who flipped the house did a TERRIBLE job installing the door and it constantly stuck to the frame, no matter the season). It was just a nice added bonus.
A few days later, we had someone out to officially measure all 24 windows that were going to be replaced. They indicated in about 6-8 weeks, they’d be able to come back and install the new windows. The were planning on having the job complete in one day, but said it could spill over into two days. We were fine with that and waited for our new windows.
Install day came and as we’d read, the Champion team did an excellent job removing the old and installing the new windows, and even making things look a little better than they did before on the exterior. They cleaned up after themselves and all we had to do was move our furniture back in place. We are completely happy with the look of the new windows, and the fact that it doesn’t get nearly as hot (or cold) in our house as it did before they were installed. It was almost an immediate difference for the climate in our house!
My only complaint was that after the install was complete, Josh received a call from Mack indicating that we still owed him 2-3 referrals. I’d given him one, because I had a friend looking at replacing a couple windows (I also gave her our Window World contact’s info too). No where had we promised him referrals – because it’s so easy to pull those out of my rear end. We reviewed the Marketing Agreement that we signed, and that was not one of the things we’d agreed to (keeping a sign in our yard for 30 days, write a testimonial letter or something indicating we’d seen a decrease in energy bills, etc. – all things we agreed to, referrals were not). He was pretty insistent that we had, but Josh and I pulled out our paperwork as did Mack (after he called us – not before to check to see if this was a valid thing we’d missed) and it was then he realized we were correct. He backed down, but it left Josh and I riled up. Not cool.
All in all, we’re happy with our windows and it definitely got our neighbors talking…haha!
In addition to the windows, we brought Chris from Blue Square Construction to do a few things around the house. Chris came out last year to work on B’s room, as well as put crown molding up in the dining room. We were very happy with his work, we knew he was the perfect choice for the new projects we had in mind.
We loved the look of the crown molding int he dining room so much, we decided we wanted to put some in our master bedroom, as well as paint. We picked the color Refuge, by Sherwin Williams, after seeing it in one of their online publications that Josh received in his email.
And in keeping with our love of green, we chose to use the Behr Rejuvenate color to freshen up B’s bathroom. It was one of the colors we looked at using for our master bathroom, but we ended up going with a darker color (Mother Nature) instead. The lighter green, we figured would be better for a kid’s bathroom – and we were right! In addition to the new paint color, we had Chris add some bead board to give it a little extra something. We love it!
The color looks a little yellowish in this picture, but I promise it’s not. I’m just too lazy to re-take a photo, because it’s taken me this long to get to writing – I’m not putting off the post anymore!
And lastly, we had Chris paint the living room and add some walls near the steps, so when the time comes we can easily put baby gates up (with B rolling from back to belly, and belly to back – we need to be prepared!). We went with Sherwin Williams Universal Khaki to give the room a bit more oompf. We liked the slightly darker color, and feel it works well with the colors in the room. It was great having Chris’ team paint the living room, as there’s no way we could have done this ourselves!
The added walls also give a little bit more comfort as you’re walking down the stairs. Before, there was nothing next to the first step, so it made it very awkward when you were going downstairs! Now, while the handrail doesn’t fully extend up – the wall acts as a guide until you get to the handrail.
Now that we have the walls there, Josh and I have talked about getting a custom built in bookshelf between the walls, and mounting the TV a little higher up on the wall. It’s on the to-do list, but it’ll be awhile before we get there. With all the stuff we had done all at once, we’re going to take a little breather and enjoy the newly updated house!
When I was pregnant, I always heard that after the baby is born, your hair can start falling out. Well, after a couple months of not losing any more hair than normal I was convinced that it wasn’t going to happen.
I. was. wrong.
The amount of hair that I’m shedding on a daily basis is INSANE. Josh’s least favorite thing about living with a female has always been the random long hairs that appear everywhere (laundry, bathroom counter, bathroom floor, the bed, etc.). I told him I wasn’t planning on shaving my head anytime soon, so he just had to deal with it.
While B was baking in my belly, I decided to grow my hair out. It got long. As long as it was when we got married – for the first time since we got married 4 years ago. And a couple weeks ago, my hair started falling out, especially when washing it. I kid you not folks, I’ve clogged our shower drain with the amount of hair I’ve lost! Thank goodness for Drano…
I was getting tired of the long hair, and since summer is nearly here, I decided to cut my hair. Since it’s so fine and straight as a board, it doesn’t really do well when it’s long, and little fingers have started pulling on it. I won’t lie, having the ability to throw it up in a bun was nice, but I was relying on that look every day, and I was over it!
I had about 5 inches cut off, and it feels so much lighter and has way more bounce than it did before the hair appointment.
But I’m still losing hair!
This morning, using a wide-ish tooth comb, enough hair came out to ball it up into a nickel sized hair ball. At least it’s not as long as it was…
Luckily Josh wasn’t around to see that.
So soon-to-be moms, know that it’s coming – even if it doesn’t happen right away, your hair can fall out up until your baby is a year old (GASP!). You may even wonder if you’ll go completely bald with the amount falling out (you won’t…or at least you shouldn’t).
But hey, maybe if I did go bald, Josh wouldn’t have to deal with random hair everywhere!
I realized recently that I never posted final pictures of B’s room, after I first posted about it.
Up until two weeks before I went back to work, B slept in our room. It was so helpful during the middle of the night feedings, and to keep an eye on him, but honestly, I don’t feel I slept all that well with his little breathing noises, stretching, grunting, etc. So once B started sleeping through the night (well, 10 pm to 4 am) around 10 weeks, we started putting him in his crib at night. Thank goodness for the video monitor!
From then on, B slept in his crib at night, and left us some restful nights. Granted we still have our nights when he wakes up, mostly due to him teething, but I consider us lucky that he’s done so well so far!
We still have a couple things we want to do to his room, but for now we’re pretty close to being finished!
View of the primary wall, with crib. We have two newborn photos on either side of his name.
Here’s a close-up of the mobile. Purchased from Target.com. Love this little thing! I saw it on Pinterest, but every time I went to purchase it, it was sold out online and never available in store. Towards the end of February, it was available and I jumped on the chance to purchase it! I feel that it’s perfect for the room!
Here’s the view from the opposite side of the room from the entry door. We got our wall art up from PrintChicks on Etsy. They were quick to fulfill, and we love the prints! We got the alligator peg hanger from Pottery Barn Kids as it was on clearance. We actually bought two, just in case something happened to the first…we really liked it.
Here’s the storage area that we setup for B’s toys. We got the pieces at IKEA, and loved the fact that we can interchange the storage pieces, but for now they’re lined up to match my compulsive need for symmetry.
And here’s the corner where we spend a lot of time at night, and it’s one of my favorite places in his room. I love cuddling in the glider, and I absolutely adore the picture of B we had made on Canvaspop from an Instagram photo I took one night after his bath.
Here’s a close-up of the pic. The canvas turned out great!
And that’s B’s room for now!
Since having little man, I’ve had a couple months of sorting through different baby products. I know in the grand scheme, there’s plenty more to learn, but I figured I’d blog about the items that I’ve really enjoyed thus far. Plus, I have a few pregnant friends that have been asking me about certain products – so I wanted to put my thoughts in one spot!
To start, I figured I’d talk about the phone apps that helped keep my sanity during the first few weeks/months. In Part II, I’ll get into actual products from our registry (and ones we picked up that weren’t)!
On the night B was born, he cried. A lot. We were at a loss what to do when Justin Timberlake music stopped working. I remembered someone mentioning “white noise” as something that would help sooth babies, so I frantically downloaded several white noise apps from the app store. Sleepy Sounds (free version) ended up being our favorite app. It was (is) B’s kryptonite. When he would start crying, but couldn’t quite convert over to sleep, we’d turn this app on and let it run. You can use the timer function for up to 99 minutes, and it’ll gradually get quieter before time is up so there’s no jarring sound change for the baby OR you can let it run indefinitely. I’ve used both functions. It worked so well on my phone, I had Josh download it onto his Android phone, so we’d both be armed with tools to help B calm down!
The name of this app made me laugh, who wouldn’t? When you’re attached to a pump, you kind of feel like a cow (not going to lie to you folks!). I had no interest in actually breastfeeding, but figured I’d give pumping a try at the last minute (I was planning on formula feeding from the get-go). B still got the “good stuff” and I wasn’t the sole person responsible for feeding him at all times of the day, and that in itself made pumping completely worth it!
This app allows you to track all of your pumping sessions, and catalog the amounts you produce throughout the day. You can combine bottles with the app, show which amounts are in the fridge vs. freezer vs. en route (if you pump at work or while out), etc. I found this app when B was 2 weeks old, and it actually made pumping more fun (for me) because I could see statistics and the actual totals over time that I pumped. You can time each side separately, and even export the data if you want to use it for something.
All in all, an excellent app!
I found Total Baby the day B turned 2 months old. I was looking for something that would help me keep track of the number of diaper changes he was having in a day. Just surviving the day, I couldn’t tell you how many times I’d changed him…and it’s ALWAYS something they ask at the doctor!
This app does way more than just track diaper changes, my friends, it tracks EVERYTHING. Diaper changes, feedings, baths, play time, medication, sleep, doctor’s visits (including a place to chart weight, length, vaccines), allergies, milestones, and you can even keep a diary of important events (and you can add photos).
I love having data, so this quickly became my daily app once I stopped pumping. However, they also have a way to track pumping sessions, in addition to everything else, so it truly could be your one-stop app should you choose to try it out. The down side is that it’s only available on the Apple iOS platform.
Obviously, this isn’t a baby app, but it’s been great to have on your phone. I’m constantly taking photos of B (I’ve filled up my phone storage at least 10 times since he’s been born with video and pictures). I like the filters on there, and the ease of use. B has his own Instagram account, so we do a daily photo on there as well. Plus, there are several cool sites that can print products using your Instagram photos like Foxgram and Canvaspop. We have used both and were happy with the results! I’ll share pics of our most recent Canvaspop purchase when I get the final photos of B’s nursery together!
Again, not a baby specific app – but I’ve used it a few times for side by side comparison photos of me and B (our baby photos side by side) and photos of B that we’ve taken each month. Easy to use, if you don’t have it – download it today!
Those are my favorite apps for now – am I missing out on any great ones? If so, please share in the comments section! I love me some apps, so if you love ‘em, I’ll probably download them!
And stay tuned for Part II!
I don’t have any wisdom to disperse, as I’m still very much winging things right now, but being B’s mom has given me a whole new perspective on everything. Some of the little things that I used to care about – they’re not remotely important anymore. I’ve realized things about the people around us that I never noticed before, and have realized who in our life will be there for us no matter what. And I’m still learning about unconditional love, and how amazing it is.
I’m also learning how hard it really is to be a mother (a parent really, but since it’s Mother’s Day, I’m going with that). The energy is zapped from me daily, but I feel it’s entirely worth it when I see the one little dimple on B’s right cheek appear. I try my best not to complain knowing there are so many women out there that wish to become mothers, but truthfully the times where it might cross my mind to do so are few and far between. I would do anything for this kid, and God help anyone that tries to hurt him.
And it’s now that I’m starting to realize what my mom went through with me, and often look to her for advice. It’s not easy being responsible for taking on the needs of a tiny person and I’m lucky that I’m not going at it alone (Josh has been an amazing father and husband).
We both have pretty awesome mom’s, and must say, they did a great job raising us to be two awesome adults. My only hope is that when B gets older, he feels the same way about me.
Happy Mother’s Day to our mom’s, we love you!